다른 사람과는 조금 다른 나
작은 바람에도 난 흔들리듯 여리지만
꿈꾸고 있어 온 세상을 채우고도
남을 만큼 큰
왜 하필 나여야만 했던 이야기
마주 보기 싫었던
그 상처를 삼켰을 때
조금씩 스며든 공허함 같은 건
한 뼘 더 자라고 있단 의미인 걸
보통만큼 행복하면
될 것 같은데
딱 보통만큼만
내 마음 속에 답이 있는데
무너질 것 같던 순간
내게 와준 선명한 빛
나에겐 나를 지킬 내가 있다고
눈이 부실만큼 빛나는
꿈을가진
그대로의 나
덜컥 또 겁이 나서 숨어버렸어
오늘은 더 잘해내자고 다짐했던 것과 달리
습관처럼 말이야 불행해지기를
반복하다 다시 일어서곤 해
보통만큼 행복하면
될 것 같은데
딱 보통만큼만
내 마음 속에 답이 있는데
잠들기 전 누구보다
간절했던 나의 기도
나에게 나를 지킬 힘을 달라고
아주 조금 먼저 어른이 될 뿐이야
나만의 속도로
더 부딪치고 넘어져도 돼
폭풍 같은 시간들이
지나가면 먼 그날에
덤덤히 말을 할 수 있을 것 같아
가장 아름다운 시간을 찾기 위한 길이었다고
dareun saramgwaneun jogeum dareun na
jageun baramedo nan heundeullideut yeorijiman
kkumkkugo isseo on sesangeul chaeugodo
nameul mankeum keun
wae hapil nayeoyaman haetteon iyagi
maju bogi shireotteon
geu sangcheoreul samkyeosseul ttae
jogeumsshik seumyeodeun gongheoham gateun geon
han ppyeom deo jarago ittan uimiin geol
botongmankeum haengbokhamyeon
dwel geot gateunde
ttak botongmankeumman
nae maeum soge dapi inneunde
muneojil geot gatteon sungan
naege wajun seonmyeonghan bit
naegen nareul jigil naega ittago
nuni bushilmankeum binnaneun
kkumeulgajin
geudaeroye na
deolkeok tto geobi naseo sumeobeoryeosseo
oneureun deo jalhaenaejago dajimhaetteon geotgwa dalli
seupgwancheoreom mariya bulhaenghaejigireul
banbokhada dashi ileoseogon hae
botongmankeum haengbokhamyeon
dwel geot gateunde
ttak botongmankeumman
nae maeum soge dapi inneunde
jamdeulgi jeon nuguboda
ganjeolhaetteon naye gido
naege nareul jigil himeul dallago
aju jogeum meonjeo eoreuni dwel ppuniya
namane sokdoro
deo budijchigo neomeojyeodo dwae
pokpung gateun shigandeuri
jinagamyeon meon geunare
deomdeomhi mareul hal su isseul geot gata
gajang areumdaun shiganeul chatgi wihan gilieottago
I’m a bit different from others
I’m soft-hearted, even small hopes can shake me up
But I’m dreaming so much
that I can fill up the world and then some
Why did it have to be me in this story?
When I swallowed those scars
that I didn’t want to look at
The emptiness slowly seeped in
But that just meant I was growing more
I thought I wanted
to be normally happy
Just a normal amount
I had the answer in my heart
But a clear light came to me right
when I was about to break down
Telling me that I can protect myself
That it’s me, who has a dream
that shines so much that it dazzles
Just as I am
Suddenly, I got scared again so I hid
I told myself to do a better job today but
Like a habit, I kept feeling unhappy
And then I got up again
I thought I wanted
to be normally happy
Just a normal amount
I had the answer in my heart
Before bed, I prayed
more earnestly than anyone else
For strength to protect myself
I just grew up a little earlier than usual
At my own pace
I can clash and fall as much as I want
Once the storm passes,
in the far away future
I think I can calmly say
That I was on the path to find the most beautiful times