I have a habit which is I cannot look up
to see the evening sky any day
I hate the feeling as if
the whole world is gonna leave me
That sun falling faraway will come here tomorrow
It seems that it wouldn’t, the sunshine that brightened me
Love comes again though you leave me
Even if I had a clamorous parting
You weigh on my mind over and over like this
I laugh for loving something occasionally
I feel the happiness more occasionally
But you are deep in me
Whenever I give someone my heart
I have a habit of saving the half
I hate the foreboding that if I give all of it
he would just leave me
I cannot give this half to anyone
But I don’t want me broken half way to show up
Love comes again to me though you leave me
Even if I had a clamorous parting
You weigh on my mind over and over like this
I laugh for loving something occasionally
I feel the happiness more occasionally
But you are you are you are deep in me
Whereabouts is your mind?
I wonder if it has hovered around me
Just like me, once in a while
I realized that time
could not wipe everything out
I’m still not able to call your name comfortably.
Somebody not you hugs me.
And somebody not me hugs you.
Although days flow eternally like this.
The words that I didn’t say yet remain in my mouth
The love that I didn’t give wholly remains in my mind
Maybe you are still in me….