Do I cry?
Do I laugh?
I don’t know
I just nod
I just nod
All of this
This hits too close to home
The person I see on that screen
Crying
It’s exactly how I feel
And my eyes get misty
I turn the TV off and back on
I keep changing the channel
All I see are scenes of heartbreak
I turn on the radio
All I hear are stories like mine
And then the dawn arrives
I close my eyes but still I see you
Loss makes me selfish
Just to fill up this tiny emptiness I feel
I grab hold of someone else’s emotions
And stuff them into my own heart
With this desolation and loneliness that isn’t mine
I fill up my chest and my mouth
And pretend that I’m telling my own story
To tell you the truth, I’m scared
To feel anything that is entirely mine
Even a loose strand of emotion must be cut off
Because I know that with even one pull
I’m a ball of thread that will fall apart
I’ll be perfectly fine and then
Hear a song lyric in the wind
And it breaks my heart
If I can’t reverse time, I’d rather fall apart
Maybe that will be the hard pill I need
So I swallow up these bitter memories
I watch tragic love stories
That I’ve already seen countless times
And cry myself to sleep
If I empty myself, maybe I’ll be filled once again
I keep looking for some sadness that will take your place
This hits too close to home
The person I hear in that song
Crying
It’s exactly how I feel
And my eyes get misty
At last I see
That the tragedies littering our screens
The moans carved note by note into each song
Are all because the world hurts like I do
And is crying out to be noticed
See how I’m falling apart even though
I was emotionless when we parted?
Though we are over
I see you in everything
And you keep holding me back
from escaping
I hate this
The fact that the same banal plotlines
and lines of dialogue I scoffed at
Are now piercing my heart
The fact that I’m trying to fool myself into believing
Something as fanciful as fate
Am I losing my mind?
I can’t stop my emotions
And my eyes get misty
It’s like they’re doing the crying
I no longer have the strength to do
Everything I see and hear and feel
This hits too close to home
The person standing in that mirror
Crying
It’s exactly how I feel
And my eyes get misty
I turn the TV off and back on
I keep changing the channel
All I see are scenes of heartbreak
I turn on the radio
All I hear are stories like mine
And then the dawn arrives
I close my eyes but still I see you
Do I cry?
Do I laugh?
I don’t know
I just nod
I just nod