The Story Behind (그렇지 않아) lyrics

익숙한 뒷모습 너였어
신기할 만큼 그대로였으니까
한눈에 널 알아채고선
어떤 말을 할까
고민하는 새
가까워지는 너

그땐 내가 참 어려서
내 마음도 몰라서
그렇게 보냈어
잘 지내고 있니
묻는 네게

그렇지 않아
한순간도 널 잊지 못해서
붙잡고 싶었는데
웃고 있는 널 보니까
하게 되는 그 말
응 난 잘 지내
너만큼이나

여전히 넌 햇살 같아서
추운 내 맘이 봄처럼 녹아내려
어젠 널 다 잊은 것처럼
친구들을 만나서
이젠 괜찮아
애써 넘겼었는데

내 앞에 네가 온 순간
무너진 내 거짓말
잘 지내 보여서
정말 다행이야
웃는 네게

그렇지 않아
한순간도 널 잊지 못해서
붙잡고 싶었는데
웃고 있는 널 보니까
하게 되는 그 말
응 난 잘 지내
너만큼이나

인사를 건네면 정말로 끝일까 봐
의미 없는 말만 늘어놔
변한 게 없는 너
그게 미운 거야
내겐 전부였었던 너

그러지 말아
친구처럼 편해진
표정과 말투들이
나를 얼어붙게 해
얼마나 아픈 순간인지
넌 모를 테니까

돌아서는 널
바라만 보는 내가
미치도록 싫지만
네가 돌아본다면 나 달려가 말할게
아니 널 못 보내
난 너여야 해

그렇지 않아
무너진 내 거짓말

iksukhan dwismoseup neoyeosseo
singihal mankeum geudaeroyeosseunikka
hannune neol arachaegoseon
eotteon mareul halkka
gominhaneun sae
gakkawojineun neo

geuttaen naega cham eoryeoseo
nae maeumdo mollaseo
geureohge bonaesseo
jal jinaego issni
mutneun nege

geureohji anha
hansungando neol ijji moshaeseo
butjapgo sipeossneunde
usgo issneun neol bonikka
hage doeneun geu mal
eung nan jal jinae
neomankeumina

yeojeonhi neon haessal gataseo
chuun nae mami bomcheoreom noganaeryeo
eojen neol da ijeun geoscheoreom
chingudeureul mannaseo
ijen gwaenchanha
aesseo neomgyeosseossneunde

nae ape nega on sungan
muneojin nae geojismal
jal jinae boyeoseo
jeongmal dahaengiya
usneun nege

geureohji anha
hansungando neol ijji moshaeseo
butjapgo sipeossneunde
usgo issneun neol bonikka
hage doeneun geu mal
eung nan jal jinae
neomankeumina

insareul geonnemyeon jeongmallo kkeutilkka bwa
uimi eopsneun malman neureonwa
byeonhan ge eopsneun neo
geuge miun geoya
naegen jeonbuyeosseossdeon neo

geureoji mara
chingucheoreom pyeonhaejin
pyojeonggwa maltudeuri
nareul eoreobutge hae
eolmana apeun sunganinji
neon moreul tenikka

doraseoneun neol
baraman boneun naega
michidorok silhjiman
nega dorabondamyeon na dallyeoga malhalge
ani neol mot bonae
nan neoyeoya hae

geureohji anha
muneojin nae geojismal

The familiar back was you
Because it was amazingly the same
I recognized you at a glance
what should i say
a bird thinking
You are getting closer

I was so young back then
Because I don’t even know my own heart
I sent it like that
How is it going
To you asking

it is not so
Because I can’t forget you even for a moment
I wanted to hold on to you
When I see you smiling
The words you say
Yeah I'm fine
As much as you

You are still like sunshine
My cold heart melts like spring
As if I forgot you all yesterday
meeting friends
It's okay now
I tried hard to get over it

The moment you came in front of me
My lies collapsed
You seem to be doing well
I'm so glad
To you smiling

it is not so
Because I can’t forget you even for a moment
I wanted to hold on to you
When I see you smiling
The words you say
Yeah I'm fine
As much as you

I wonder if it will really be the end if I say hello
Just saying meaningless words
You haven't changed
That's what I hate
You were everything to me

Don't do that
I became comfortable like a friend
Facial expressions and tone of voice
freezes me
What a painful moment
Because you won't know

You turn around
I just look at you
I hate it so much but
If you turn around, I'll run and tell you
No I can't let you go
i need to be you

it is not so
My lies collapsed